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themegalooSo, Kerry's catching up! *crosses fingers*
Barrow beat Burns. YAY!
Ammendment 1 (ban same-sex marriages) passed with 76 bloody percent.
91% of Georgia is in.
I HATE LIVING IN A DAMN CONSERVATIVE STATE.
I mean, it's like my votes don't count for shut because I'm the minority! Stupid electoral college, i truly hate it. I know Kerry's behind in the popular vote, but REALLY. I'd at least be happy if my vote counted for SOMETHING.
If I weren't so tired, I'd kick something. I really would. So many people don't realize everything Ammendment 1 entailed, I mean, DAMNIT.
At least my parents didn't vote for it. *hugs them*
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On a completely different note:
Seminar. I love my professor, I really do. But today was rough.
I'm not sure when, but I started shaking. Sometime in the beginning of class. Mighta been right before I started talking about the characters that have affected me the most (Remus Lupin-HArry Potter, Prior-Angels in America, and Peter-Bare, Angel- Rent...amoung others). But then we started talking about how whether or not the literate have an obligation to teach/help those who aren't. Everyone was talking about how they DID feel that responsibility.
I don't. I read as much as I did because that was my escape, my lifeline. People in school didn't talk to me. Those that did teased me. I hid behind a book. It prootected me from the world. My favorite characters are those that are strong in the face of a world that cannot accept them for who they are. Those are the characters I look up to. The ones with the courage to be themselves without fear of the rest of the world. I still crave acceptance from my firends, people who really do love me.
That's the hardest thing for me here. I left so many of those people behind. I saw Robert today. He gave me a gaint hug. Spun mea round. He always does that. I feel...special when he does. He's been really awesome for me lately, I've had a lot of crap that I've talked to him about, largely the issue of my sexuality. He was truly wonderful about it. I need someone like him HERE. I need those friendly hugs, I have Steven, he's wonderful and supportive, but 'two people isn't enough' (To quote 'About a Boy').
So I'm lonely. And I still tend to be a bit messed up in the head from all the shit it middle school. Sometimes...I just feel so alone. It's slowly getting better though. I just wish I had someone I could really, REALLY talk to.
LYRICS:
MATT
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to stand outside?
To watch the world and wish
You didn’t hurt so much, you cried
I know I’m not the only one
And I know I shouldn’t care
But when I feel these things are real
I wish I felt you there
And if I did, I’d ask you
How come life is so unfair?
PETER
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to be afraid?
That nothing will become
Of all the plans that you have made?
So I watch the girls surround him
And he says it’s just a game
I guess that I believe him
But it hurts me just the same
And I’m all about this stupid act
So who am I to blame?
BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Do you watch me when I cry?
And if it’s in your power,
How can you sit idly by?
I try so hard to please you
But you never seem to see
MATT
Is it my fate to sit and wait?
PETER
Wonder what my struggle means
MATT
I wish I knew that someone out there cared
PETER
Are you there?
BOTH
Cared for me
MATT
Who’s out there?
PETER
Matt?
MATT
Yeah!
Are you alright?
PETER
I’m fine
MATT
Here, have some wine
PETER
This is holy wine!
MATT
The Father hasn’t blessed it yet
PETER
In that case…
MATT
Grab a chalice
PETER
Thanks.
Life sucks…
MATT
Here, have the rest
So why’d you leave?
PETER
The party?
MATT
Yeah
PETER
I was getting kind of bored
MATT
[Laugh] Oh, me too!
PETER
There’s another reason…
MATT
Yeah?
PETER
It sucks to be ignored
MATT
I know!
I always fight to do what’s right, and this is my reward
PETER
This is my reward
BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Can you make some time for me?
They tell me that you’re out there
And they tell me that you see
I try to find the meaning
God, you know how hard I’ve tried
But I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t have any guide
MATT
They said things would get better
But I guess…they lied
PETER
Are you there?
He needs to give me more!
MATT
I’ll drink to that!
PETER
Who cares if people think we’re fine?
We’ve been through this before!
One day he’ll wake up
And realize all he needs is me
Until then, God, I wish I knew
I need a guarantee
MATT
I need to know for sure that you’ll be there
PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there
BOTH
There for me
PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there
MATT
Send a sign so that I know you’re there
BOTH
There for me
Yeah, gorgeous song. Tends to sum up how I feel about life.
*aywns* Tomorrow will be a better day. I hope.
Barrow beat Burns. YAY!
Ammendment 1 (ban same-sex marriages) passed with 76 bloody percent.
91% of Georgia is in.
I HATE LIVING IN A DAMN CONSERVATIVE STATE.
I mean, it's like my votes don't count for shut because I'm the minority! Stupid electoral college, i truly hate it. I know Kerry's behind in the popular vote, but REALLY. I'd at least be happy if my vote counted for SOMETHING.
If I weren't so tired, I'd kick something. I really would. So many people don't realize everything Ammendment 1 entailed, I mean, DAMNIT.
At least my parents didn't vote for it. *hugs them*
--------------------------
On a completely different note:
Seminar. I love my professor, I really do. But today was rough.
I'm not sure when, but I started shaking. Sometime in the beginning of class. Mighta been right before I started talking about the characters that have affected me the most (Remus Lupin-HArry Potter, Prior-Angels in America, and Peter-Bare, Angel- Rent...amoung others). But then we started talking about how whether or not the literate have an obligation to teach/help those who aren't. Everyone was talking about how they DID feel that responsibility.
I don't. I read as much as I did because that was my escape, my lifeline. People in school didn't talk to me. Those that did teased me. I hid behind a book. It prootected me from the world. My favorite characters are those that are strong in the face of a world that cannot accept them for who they are. Those are the characters I look up to. The ones with the courage to be themselves without fear of the rest of the world. I still crave acceptance from my firends, people who really do love me.
That's the hardest thing for me here. I left so many of those people behind. I saw Robert today. He gave me a gaint hug. Spun mea round. He always does that. I feel...special when he does. He's been really awesome for me lately, I've had a lot of crap that I've talked to him about, largely the issue of my sexuality. He was truly wonderful about it. I need someone like him HERE. I need those friendly hugs, I have Steven, he's wonderful and supportive, but 'two people isn't enough' (To quote 'About a Boy').
So I'm lonely. And I still tend to be a bit messed up in the head from all the shit it middle school. Sometimes...I just feel so alone. It's slowly getting better though. I just wish I had someone I could really, REALLY talk to.
LYRICS:
MATT
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to stand outside?
To watch the world and wish
You didn’t hurt so much, you cried
I know I’m not the only one
And I know I shouldn’t care
But when I feel these things are real
I wish I felt you there
And if I did, I’d ask you
How come life is so unfair?
PETER
Do you know—well, of course you do—
What it’s like to be afraid?
That nothing will become
Of all the plans that you have made?
So I watch the girls surround him
And he says it’s just a game
I guess that I believe him
But it hurts me just the same
And I’m all about this stupid act
So who am I to blame?
BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Do you watch me when I cry?
And if it’s in your power,
How can you sit idly by?
I try so hard to please you
But you never seem to see
MATT
Is it my fate to sit and wait?
PETER
Wonder what my struggle means
MATT
I wish I knew that someone out there cared
PETER
Are you there?
BOTH
Cared for me
MATT
Who’s out there?
PETER
Matt?
MATT
Yeah!
Are you alright?
PETER
I’m fine
MATT
Here, have some wine
PETER
This is holy wine!
MATT
The Father hasn’t blessed it yet
PETER
In that case…
MATT
Grab a chalice
PETER
Thanks.
Life sucks…
MATT
Here, have the rest
So why’d you leave?
PETER
The party?
MATT
Yeah
PETER
I was getting kind of bored
MATT
[Laugh] Oh, me too!
PETER
There’s another reason…
MATT
Yeah?
PETER
It sucks to be ignored
MATT
I know!
I always fight to do what’s right, and this is my reward
PETER
This is my reward
BOTH
Are you there? Are you there?
Can you make some time for me?
They tell me that you’re out there
And they tell me that you see
I try to find the meaning
God, you know how hard I’ve tried
But I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t have any guide
MATT
They said things would get better
But I guess…they lied
PETER
Are you there?
He needs to give me more!
MATT
I’ll drink to that!
PETER
Who cares if people think we’re fine?
We’ve been through this before!
One day he’ll wake up
And realize all he needs is me
Until then, God, I wish I knew
I need a guarantee
MATT
I need to know for sure that you’ll be there
PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there
BOTH
There for me
PETER
Send a sign so that I know you’re there
MATT
Send a sign so that I know you’re there
BOTH
There for me
Yeah, gorgeous song. Tends to sum up how I feel about life.
*aywns* Tomorrow will be a better day. I hope.
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Date: 2004-11-03 09:24 pm (UTC)We always need more then two people, but it is hard at times to find those other people to confide in. Sometimes, we just need that one special person, but other times we need something more.