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Feb. 1st, 2004 10:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
themegaloo*yawns* I'm deninately obsessing over this journal again. Hiding from germs must do that to ya.
It's like...I just need an outlet. Somewhere to write where people can tell me how dumb I am about something or whatever. Writing is making me happier. And contray to popular belief, I am NOT always happy.
My mind is the bane of my existance. When I'm alone, it works too much. I create problems for myself. It's like- Seeing my friend Alex. She's really wonderful, and means a whole lot to me. But I'm torn as to whether or not to tell her that. Part of me thinks it'll make me feel better to know that one of us will never leave this world without her knowing how dear she's become to me, but the other part is downright terrified to say anything at all to the effect.
I don't tend to think my friends care as much for me as I do for them. Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm just being stupid again. I think this one needs to be friend locked. Lol. That last paragraph could be taken as not quite...het content. Which maybe it shouldn't be. I honestly don't know.
But I AM quite happy in my straight, happy, relationship of the past year and almost three months. So don't take that too seriously.
MAybe it's just that she's the only girl (In RL- I trust you guys!) I really trust these days....Arg. I told you I was a danger to myself! Damn myself.
Shutting up now and going to bed.
Don't think me weird and horrid. I just wanted to write it out.
And I really am happy. When I'm not thinking too much!
It's like...I just need an outlet. Somewhere to write where people can tell me how dumb I am about something or whatever. Writing is making me happier. And contray to popular belief, I am NOT always happy.
My mind is the bane of my existance. When I'm alone, it works too much. I create problems for myself. It's like- Seeing my friend Alex. She's really wonderful, and means a whole lot to me. But I'm torn as to whether or not to tell her that. Part of me thinks it'll make me feel better to know that one of us will never leave this world without her knowing how dear she's become to me, but the other part is downright terrified to say anything at all to the effect.
I don't tend to think my friends care as much for me as I do for them. Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm just being stupid again. I think this one needs to be friend locked. Lol. That last paragraph could be taken as not quite...het content. Which maybe it shouldn't be. I honestly don't know.
But I AM quite happy in my straight, happy, relationship of the past year and almost three months. So don't take that too seriously.
MAybe it's just that she's the only girl (In RL- I trust you guys!) I really trust these days....Arg. I told you I was a danger to myself! Damn myself.
Shutting up now and going to bed.
Don't think me weird and horrid. I just wanted to write it out.
And I really am happy. When I'm not thinking too much!
