A few things!

[themegaloo]

Firstly, I finally remembered the other amusing story I had intended to relate yesterday:

So, for like, ALL OF LAST YEAR, including the summer, I lived on the third floor, backside of the building. Well, back as in "the side not facing campus," because if you're ON that side it would seem to be the front and all, but for simplicity's sake, I'm calling it the backside of the building

Then a few weeks ago I moved to the SECOND floor on the [relative] frontside of the SAME building. [Not sharing space with so many people so it's smaller and I like it <3 Plus my roommate? Completely fabulous. Only awkward point is the ex-boyfriend across the hall who FLEES, apparently, when he seens me. =/]

So yesterday, walking in from class, etc, so on, so forth, dullness, listening to music and then....then I realize I'm five steps from the third floor on the [relative] backside of the building!

So, naturally, I face palm and waltz around the third floor and go down the steps next to my room. I know, it's not a thrilling story in the least, but I know some people will want to taunt me with it at least!

Other Notable Happenings:
1. Look at my previous entry. Look at the number of comments [currently 167]. I have -never in my life- had that many comments to a post in my LJ. Ever. My inbox? It died. I have it going through Thunderbird, checking like, every minute, I believe for that account and I was getting comment notifications in groups of between 4 and 6 every few minutes for a while. I loved it! *amused*
2. I do solemnly swear not to call Matt adorable.
3. Does anyone know where I can find jeans with like, striped [via seams] pant legs?
4. ...brain died. I swear there was more. Why does this always happen to me?! *headdesk*

Comments

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

He's going on vacation and you can't even leave the flat? Um, not that it's any of my business, sorry, but that doesn't make sense.

[popcornlasers.livejournal.com]

It's not that I can't leave--he'd never try and stop me if I did--it's just that he won't like it. He's got it in his head that I won't come back.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

...is that actually a danger?

[popcornlasers.livejournal.com]

No. I've never left him before--for anything. I was stupid once and threatened that I might, but all that did was destroy his trust in me; he hasn't changed anything at all. I don't know what to do. I probably shouldn't be complaining to you like this.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

Do you know, this is 100 comments in this single chain? Well, 101 once I post this.

I don't mind, honestly. I mightn't be able to give much advice/comfort...which is what I usually tend to do for my friends, but I can't help wanting to try. Surely he still trusts you, despite it, maybe it's more of a fear than a lack of trust?

[popcornlasers.livejournal.com]

Haha, that's amusing.

I don't need "comfort" or whatever, I'm fine. And he shouldn't be afraid; he has no reason to be and I've told him that. I don't know why he won't believe me.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

What's also amusing is I've been waiting and watching for it. Or maybe that's just sad.

I know you don't, but that doesn't stop me from wishing there was something I could do. Because I rather like you. Just as a person, yanno?

[popcornlasers.livejournal.com]

I honestly haven't been paying attention, but now that you bring it up it is pretty funny. :D

Well...thank you. I appreciate it, but I really don't think they're much you can do. Thanks anywya, though.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

I just can't believe that in all that time no ...squishing natures of fangirls have jumped in.

You're welcome, and I figured tehre wasn't, but at least wanted you to know that I would if there were. The other thing I'm prone to doing is ordering people to eat chocolate because, well, it's chocolate and a good comfort food and tastey to boot, but that seems more something for Mello than you. nyah. I hope it all...is set to rights and all.

[popcornlasers.livejournal.com]

Yes, it is rather surprising. Nice, too, though. :D

Me too. And thanks; chocolate isn't a bad idea. :D

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

A well deserved break for you, I'd say.

Provided it's not Mello's and he doesn't try to kill you or soemthing for taking it

[popcornlasers.livejournal.com]

Yes, I agree.

He wouldn't. He doesn't mind too much, I don't think, as long as I replace it.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

ah, well good. I'd wager that doesn't go for most people though, from the looks of it

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

It doesn;t. Not for anyone else, honestly.

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

I... ok, so I don't normally allow him to take my chocolate. But... as this is partly my fault and I feel horribly guilty about it, Matt can have some of it. Some.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

ah, well, I'm sure he appreciates it? I really do hope you guys can work all this out. =/

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

Me, too, dammit! Do you think I like seeing Matt so unhappy?

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

Certainly not, I think rather more highly of you than to think you enjoy causing him pain

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to see someone does.

I just... shit. Maybe he would be better off without me.

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

Enough of the strikeouts already. There is no point when the entire comment is struck-out. =/

I sincerely doubt that, he seems to completely adore you. Only in a far less girly-sounding way. Which I can't think of how to word.

But, did you not read what he's been saying? He doesn't want to leave you, he doesn't wnat to make you unhappy, he cares for you apparently a whole fucking lot, so don't be foolish, he certainly wouldn't be "better off without you."

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

All right.

... I can't imagine why.

Yes, I read it. And all that is true, but it's also true that he's hurting and it's my fault and I don't know how to fix it and I seem to make it worse whenever I try. I don't want to keep hurting him! What the fuck am I supposed to do, then?

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

Who knows why anyone falls for another person? Sometimes it's so completely illogical that it's stupid.

And yes, he's hurting, and yes, it's because of you. But you know? Cutting ties would probably hurt him just as much, if not more. The way I see it is that you need to have a very long talk, a talk about what the both of you are looking for. And you need to have a smilar talk with Hitsugaya as well. And between the three of you, something needs to be worked out. I'm not sure what, because I'm really just a by-stander here with a few insights, but something.

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

But what if I don't know what I want? What if none of us do? Do you really think we can work something out?

[themegaloo.livejournal.com]

Who really can say they know exactly wht the want in life? What's important is that you at least talk to the people who matter and get an idea of it.

And as for whether something could work, yeah. I think you have a shot, but you can't just keep on Not Talking, because that lets resentment build up and all. Maybe you can "have the ebst of both worlds," so to say, but you have to be fair to them both, up-front and honest. You follow?

[chocomachinegun.livejournal.com]

... Do you really think so? I'd like to believe it's possible. I don't want to lose either of them... but I don't want them hurting either. None of us really want to talk about it. But dammit, I'm trying to be fair and I'm sure as hell not lying about anything!

Yeah, yeah, I follow.